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(no subject) [Sep. 6th, 2007|04:11 pm]
[mood |contemplativecontemplative]

oh so bored

im supervising senior prep. there are three people in this room besides myself. hopefully they all leave early so i can leave too.
gosh. whats been happening in my life. so much.
i've gone and visitied a fair chunk of western europe. Like... France, Spain, Switzerland, Italy, Greece, Austria, Germany, The Netherlands, and Belgium.

Topdeck = woohoo x 100000000000. i have honestly never had a more fun 30 days... ever. 
i've decided im going to try and stop saying or writing 'god' coz its blaspheming. and.. while i dont condsider myself highly religioius. i dont want to be blasphmous anyway. so no more 'oh my god' 'thank god' unless i am.. thanking god. which usually im not. and yeha.. so thats the plan

not sure how i feel about being back at school. BITCHES reduced my already reduced workload even more. so now i only work 2 mornings a week in the nursery. 3 am office sessions, 3 afternoons a week and my 2 supper covers. Like.. srsly. that is not enough to occupy my time. i've asked sharon to see if she has any work in the bursury i could do. And im doing another hour in nursery on fridays. But.. do they have /nothing/ for me to do?? i've tried asking around. But the whole place is so overstaffed with people, and under pupilerised. that no one has anything for me to do. I would almost start helping john and dave with the maitienence im that bored. AGH. who would have thought i'd be asking for a job. hah

dali is one funny man isnt he. got a book here  in front of me about him. hes got weird pictures.
gosh. ill go chill. th space bar is too loud when i type. it seems it could disrupt people from their work.
only the second day back. why so studious??
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(no subject) [Apr. 18th, 2007|02:54 pm]
[mood |boredbored]

SO BORED!!!!!!!

i dispise the holidays. with passion. 3 weeks. I went away for the first 1 1/2 weeks, but now im back.. and im living in a deserted school, doing NOT MUCH AT ALL.

i watched tristan and isolde today. nawwwww. what a cute story. and that tristan kid is really quite hottttt. but its just so predictable!! Which makes it even more soppy and loveable.

i started to watch sin city too. But when it got to the bit where the girl shows you her stump of an arm and is talking about how she had to watch as the creepy killer dude ate her hand.. i stopped it. Im not cut out for that kind of graphic material!

i have a fit ball class today, at the gym. Dont know how thats gonna go. I can see myself rolling off it or something else embarrasing. But im doing a beginners course so it shouldnt be too bad, hopefully we can all roll off together.

fratellis album is soo good. i love it. i listen to it all the time. Ba da da da da da da da da. woo hoo

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this aint a sceneeee its a god damn arms race [Feb. 24th, 2007|10:38 am]
[mood |recumbentrecumbent]
[music |set fire to the third bar - snow patrol]

Its saturday morning. Just got back from breakfast. Feel like a slob. Waiting till lunch is over, then going out shopping in windsor. Gonna be good. Im gonna get something wcked to wear out on my birthday. I think... if i find anything. 
Yesterday, did office in the morning, then nursery, then went back up to room. Room locked. I didnt lock it coz my pants didnt have pockets, and i couldnt be bothered carrying round my keys or a bag. Cleaners obviously forgot this, and locked it after themselves. NICE. so had to go down and find someone who had a key to open my room. Sharon called David (the estates manager) and she was like "melinda is locked out of her room, do you have a key to open it with?" and then she was like "melinda... our gap student...." HOW EMBARRASING!! He didnt know who i was. i was so embarrassed. Got into room, checked emails, started reading vouge on bed. Fell asleep. Woke up thank god before next job, which was after school care. 2 teachers looking after 3 kids.. its such a waste, but whatever. Dinner was alright, we had bangers & mash. THe sausages were actually alright quality. I dont trust sausages as a general rule, especially dodgy bulk bought ones. But it was sausages or nothing, so i had the sausages.

Went upstairs and tara brought out her PS2 which she had.. for some unknown reason. We played singstar, good times. Played for about 4 hours.. which did get abit old by the end. Best i got was "superstar" i never got singstar :( only tara did, and its her game. 

Next watched "live from abbey road" on tv. Saw the kooks & muse play. Went up to bed. Clearly the asian girls had coined our idea of karaoke, and were playing it in the room next to mine, until about 1am. But it wasnt too loud. I just had to deal with bad singing as a went to seep. 

Dismal weather here today, overcast. I thought it was meant to be sunny. SO CLEARLY NOT.
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(no subject) [Feb. 1st, 2007|01:41 pm]
[mood |cheerfulcheerful]

Today's been pretty boring. Its my day off, so i woke up at 10, ate breakfast (malted wheats, which are like a more healthy version of crispex, you know the little lattice things) and then i had a shower in my little shower box. Little being the operative word, if i want to shave my legs, i have to be able to touch my toes without bending my legs, there is no space, i cant  put my leg up on the wall, and i cant sit down. AGH, luckily, its winter, so i havent had to deal with that yet.

Then i went down to ashford and took out 190 pounds, which was all i had in my bank account. I borrowed some books on europe, as well as some trashy reading books. And went back. I didnt buy anything from the jolly baker, which is SO hard. You walk past the shop, and all these yummy baking smells come wafting out. But i cant afford it. Im trying to save up for my trip to paris in just over a week. It triccckky. Its going to be an awesome 5 nights tho, im well excited. We're going to be in paris for valentines day, not that i have a valentine. But i wonder if the city of love does anything special to celebrate? It remains to be seen. What i do know, is that im going to be living on bread, and other cheap things. COZ I HAVE NO MONEY. well, i do, but i dont want to spend it. I do get a 250 pounds for this holiday in pay, so thats good, but, yeah. translate that into euros, and thats like...500 quid. Ok, i should be fine. But im still freaking out, paris is a very expensive place by all accounts.

I keep having creepy dreams, like last night i dreamed i was fighting with my brother, like we used to do, screaming at each other, and kicking and wrestling each other. And the night before i dreamed i was going to mars for a year, and we were at the airport, and i had to say goodbye to my mum, and i woke up crying. I think that i am subconsiously homesick. I dont feel that homesick during the day, but when i sleep i think my subconsious is sad. Which is making me sad during the day. DAMN YOU SUBCONSIOUS MIND.

I want to go to the gym, but i dont think i will, i might go on the weekend intead. I dont have the cash at the moment, its pay day tomorrow. I really have to start saving some money, all i do is live by week to week on the cash, and i dont save any of it. I should put like.. 20 pounds away, and spend the rest. Thats the theory anyway. 

I wanted to go to glastonbury (ssssspppeeellinnnggg) the music festival this year. that is so not going to happen, it costs 150 pounds! just for the ticket, thats about $400!! for a festival! I DONT THINK SO. plus i'd need transport, food, and a mate to go with. So yeah, no festival for me. 

Im going to go eat some more chocolate, i had  a really healthy lunch, jacket potato, celery, lettuce, capsicum. And now my body is craving sugar. Then, i might go for a jog or something... no i wont thats too much effort, and people will stare at me. I might go and do push-ups in my room. I have one of those big exercise balls in my room from a previous gap, and some weighted balls. I dont know what to do with them, but maybe i'll devise an exercise routine with them.

Good plan
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Mika - Grace Kelly LYRICS [Jan. 31st, 2007|05:37 pm]
Do I attract you?
Do I repulse you with my queasy smile?
Am I too dirty?
Am I too flirty?
Do I like what you like?

I could be wholesome
I could be loathsome
I guess Im a little bit shy
Why dont you like me?
Why dont you like me without making me try?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie
Ive gone identity mad!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why dont you like me?
Why dont you like me?
Why dont you walk out the door!

How can I help it
How can I help it
How can I help what you think?
Hello my baby
Hello my baby
Putting my life on the brink
Why dont you like me 

YAYAAY go that song. So good. I am inlove with it. Has it been released in Australia yet? i dont know, but its good anyway.
THat mika chap is the best dancer... such hot moves, see video clip for example, or... yeah, i dunno, its cool tho.
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(no subject) [Jan. 19th, 2007|09:29 pm]
[mood |contemplativecontemplative]

i realise that anyone who cares will have found out by now. but... i got into all 4 of the states i applied for, first preference. Which means, i can learn to be a paramedic anywhere i choose. I choose...melbourne (monash) to defer. And then im going to reapply for CSU(bathurst) in septemeber (course is non-deferable) and hope i get in again. Its a bparamedic/bnursing course. So thatone pretty much garuntees me a job anywhere i choose, plus i think, it makes me much mroe attractive to hire. Double degrees have that effect. Im well psyched. This just makes the last 2 years of stress so much mroe worthwhile. 

England is ace. Well.. maybe an overstatement. But.. its not too bad at all. miss people like fucking crazy. But its not so bad that im crying myself to sleep, and wanting to come home. Going into richmond tomorrow, good shops, pretty gardens, kooky cafes, and young people. I hope its as good as everyones hyped it to be. Either way, 4 pounds ont he bus to get there, 2 pounds on a coffee, thats 6 pounds for a day out. Not too bad (haha, i've decided what im doing already.. lame?)

Been writing letters to peeps at home..hopeing they're gonna write back.. it costs me about 1.19 quid to send a letter to these people.. thats about $3. I better get a freaking reply. But im so excitied, mail is fun.
Im way tired.
UK big brother is the suck. You may or may not have heard about the whole race scandal which is going on. 3 white girls are bullying this indian girl. And, they're prolly just bullying her, because its her, but, the're using her race to bully her. Like saying shit like "why dont you go back where you came from" anyway. People in india are burning effergies of the producers of big brother. So,, yeah, bigggg scandal. Its pretty atrocious. But, these guys are like... G grade celebs, who would expect anything better fromthem. One of the white girls doing the bullying is only famous... because she won big brother.. if that tellsyou anthing abou the fame of these losers, i dont know waht will. They have a girl from s club 7 on there. THAT IS NOT FAME. s club 7... they are so old! she was famous about... oh....7 years ago. not now. anyway. shit show. Its not even good quality to watch, like.. the sound keeps dropping out, and they show the wall for long periods of time. Its freaking boring!
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(no subject) [Jan. 4th, 2007|11:19 am]
[Current Location |ashford library]
[mood |lonelylonely]

oh dear. oh dear oh dear oh dear.
What a mistake i have made.
Im in england. Ashford Middlesex, quite close to london.
I wish to god i was back home.
If i had one wish, if a fairy god mother came and gave me a wish, it'd be that i never left. That i never even had this stupid idea to go accross the other side of the world for a whole fucking year. Even if it was for 6 months that would be better, but a year is just too long.

Im thinking if it doesnt get better im just going to leave after 6 months. They can go fuck themselves. I'll stay in england for halfterm (go to ireland) and summer break (contiki round europe + holiday iwth family in greek islands) and if i hate it here at school, i'll go home.

Schools awesome looking. 3 story old building, looks like a castle. Huge oval, and a lake. Uniform the girls have to wear is hidious. Green and red monstrosity.
They have sit down lunch, like.. in a dining hall, like they ahve in american movies.... weird. Only a small school pupil wise, 350 kids from kindy to 'sixth form' which is quite tiny really. Merici and grammar were both so much bigger than that, and they're only 7-12. Boarding house tho is tiny, only 20 kids, and most of them are asians who're over here to learn how to speak english... so not so great to talk to. 
Freya, the girl whos at my school with me is nice, we talk, but shes not my 'friend' yet. shes still only an aquaintence.
Still i've only been in the uk for 4 days, and only at the school for 2, so im not really stressing... welll..... no, i am stressing, but im clinging to hope that things will pick up.

anywho. its all pretty boring, i have the day off here. I havnt even started work yet, coz my first day of working is my allocated day off. Which bites. I've been wandering round the local town, and later i think i might go into staines, which is where there are a few more shops. But even that is abit of a let down, like.... what can i do. I do want to go into london, but i dont have an itinery or anything yet, so i'll work out where i want to go, and maybe book a tour thing on one of those red double decker busses (like what they have in canberra.. they have them here too) and you can get on and off whereever. Yeah, so i'll try that. Freya's and my days off are totally different, so i'll be doing site seeing all by myself. Which bites.
Im hopeing i make a few mates with other gappies in the area, and some of them will have the day off same as me. Otherwise... its going to be a lonley 6 months (which is how long im staying for if i dont make anyfriends and am lonely)
Anwho. the usuage on this computer is timed, so i might be off.
Feel free to drop me an email or whatever peeps
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(no subject) [Dec. 18th, 2006|10:11 pm]
[mood |sicksick]

So. things that happened to me today. 

I didnt sleep at all hardly last night because of this stupid cold i have, and when i was sleeping, i kept having dreams of people being mean to me and i couldnt get away from them. So i'd wake up, tell myself sternly to stop being so stupid, and dream about happy things. Go back to dozing restlessly (coz of cold) and dream about the same thing. Sucked arse.

Watched the notebook. Sad movie. but so great. i cried, but they were happy tears.

Went into town to get a new mould taken for my retainer, got that feral goo in my mouth, and then had it in there for ages afterwards. Stupid plaster stuff.

And, the kicker. Locked my keys in the car. DONT DO THIS. i thought, yeah, i'll call the nrma, they'll come, it will all be over in about 30 mins. 2 hours later... and the nrma came. 10 mins after that, the guy was still fucking around trying to open the car... by this time, my dad had gotten my message i left 2 hours before, and had come with his set of keys to open the car. But dude. 2 hours sitting around waiting in the sun. NOT ON. "promt reliable road side assistance" MY ARSE. promt... no, 2 hours is not prompt. reliable...no, did the guy get the car open...neg on that one too. LOSERS

bah. badddd day.
so i came home, and ate icecream with melted chocolate on it. Satisfying. cept i couldnt taste it coz of my damn cold
13 sleeps till i leave for a year.

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(no subject) [Oct. 29th, 2006|09:54 am]
[mood |thirstythirsty]
[music |something wicked - soma rasa]

and the procrastination continues. Meant to be doing specialsit right now. /meant/ to be. I havent done any all weekend. i have no idea what we've been doing for the last.. oh prob 4 weeks. its shameful. but whatever, im past caring, sort of, sort of really want to do well still, but cant find the motivation.

Im reading harry potter 6, well, rohan (thats the brother) was, and then i stole it off him i've almost caught up with him. We're up to the bit where harry's just found out about waht a horcrux is. Its getting so tense, coz i know whats coming. DUMBLEDORE is nearing death. i cried so hard when i read that the first time.

We were shearing today, our piddly little 20 sheep or whatever, took about half the day. Rohan and i took shifts in helping mum dad and matty (the shearer). I got sunburnt < is sad >. Poor darling lamby sconkers (shhh we named him ages ago) who is now like... 6 years old, which is quite old for a sheep, and is the only poddy lamb we have had which has stayed being friendly. Anyways, he got cut on the ear, like.. his ear was almost cut off. I hate shearing like that, the sheep get bashed around and cut so badly, and you're supposed not to notice. supposed to pretend its all fine, and that the blood and suffering of the sheep doesnt affect you. BULLSHIT. i feel so sorry for the sheepies.

Then mum and dad went out for lunch. Rohan and me got saddled with doing the sergis animals. Had to fill up the pigs water.. yuk yik yok yek yak (hehe yak)they had /none/ and so we had to stand next to these discusting hairy pigs which stunk and were really noisey with their eating and drinking. fez, but we'll get paid for it, so thats alright.

Then the rest of the day i did hardly anything. i wrote my methods assn out. Its so easy!! omg i swear that everyone is going to get 100%, you just copy it out of the book!! Gwynnie is way to easy on the peeps.

Now its 9.05 (damn daylight savings) and i still havent eaten.
Lucky i dont have rowing tomorrow.
stupid rowing, i dont get paid for that yet. biatch. i want my 20 bucks a session!
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(no subject) [Oct. 24th, 2006|09:35 am]
[mood |annoyedannoyed]

Whats going down kiddies?

So. Just found out then that the STUPID FETE ORGANISERS FOR OUR STUPID FETE TOOK THE AMNESTY STALL OFF THE LIST! so that means we're not allowed to have a stall.. which means i've just wasted alot of time and stress FOR NOTHING! im. so. cut. right. now.

In other news... i shall tell you all about my lovely fun fun day

So, first up i had coaching for rowing. Pippa and i went out in a tinny together, and coached these two battler crews. But it all went ok... the coxes were pretty novice, but they're learning, the learned awful quick WHEN THEY STEERED INTO EACH OTHER! pippa yelled at them so much for that, i just sat next to her and nodded, and looked stern. (which i do so well)

Got to school, ate breakfast ect. Found out that the project we're doing for chem is a total botch up. Mr Kent told us that our experiment was a "classic" experiment. THE STUPID THING DOESNT WORK! there is no difference. We were changing the concentration of citric acid in a titration with NaOH. THERE IS HARDLY ANY DIFFERENCE AT ALL. which we found out, and then we told mr kent and he was like "yeah, i knew that" OH MY GOD why would he let us waste all that time working on an experiment which wouldnt. work. So we're doing a different one, looking athe effect the addition of cholrine has on a titration. Hopefully this one works or we are skrewed!!

Next english, went through more sections of snow falling on cedars. I quite like that book, must see the movie.
Then free, then assembly = snore then another free. I got my rowing half colours badge today, im tres excited, i finally have a badge to put on my skirt!!

Last we had methods. Worked on assignment.

Then dropped brother off at golf, then had optometrist appointment (my eyes are a tad worse, and im going to prolly get my glasses updated, but not get contacts, coz im poor, and my mothers a tight ass)
Then went to hand in my police record check which i need for next year in england. They told me i had to get something else. Im sick of buggerising around with the stupid police idiots.
Then home. yayaya
fun day.

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